The symptoms—had already appeared.
Everyone must have certainly thought about it.
Hikaru had been looking unnatural before his 16th birthday, before his dazzling life withered to an end.
His mood swings were very drastic, and he would often look into space with a lost look, then show a delighted smile. After laughing and fooling around with the girls around him, he would look down with a pale face.
The school news once published a photo of him nearly drowning in the school pool in the middle of the night.
It showed him lying at the edge of the pool panting, his drenched uniform clinging to his body, and his tender libidinous skin lambent under the moonlight.
“All of a sudden, I just thought of swimming.”
He smiled as he said that, his eyes fair like an angel.
He once overdosed on flu medicine, and fell down the stairs in the middle of the clearing.
When he woke up in the infirmary, he merely said,
“I have been unable to sleep recently, so I thought I could use flu medicine instead of sleeping pills, but I ended up overdosing.”
That spotless, resplendent face still brought about a smile.
He again caused this immature commotion, and abashed the hearts of numerous girls admiring him. On one day, he was like a changed man, and showed a serene expression.
At that time, you decided on the choice in your heart.
If there was anything unnecessary, you would show it in front of me.
But what I wanted to see more, was what you were unwilling to show, something you cautiously hid deep within your heart, no matter how grotesque, bleak or harrowing it was.
However, you still made the decision on your own.
The decision you made